Thursday, December 10, 2009
I really don't get it... i don't know what's wrong with me and myself. I just can't get over it... Is this how people feel? No one understands me. Now not even_. I always thought that _ won;t be like this. Its time to let go. I find myself very foolish. Anyway, I'm going to Taiwan and i hate it. but what to do? its my dad's money what. He can do whatever he wants with the money. This blog's dead and I don't have the mood to care. blogging is to let your feelings out and not to please people by asking them or blogging for them to read. its for yourself. I've just realise how jubilee I am. Well, maybe it's because of my bossiness that i think i have and i wanna get it away but it seems like no one's bothering about me and that I've kinda given up on everything that's happening around me. I feel kinda left out you know. Like people are part if everything but I'm not. like example today when i went out with Andrea, Kai Hsin, Tiffany and other people. all of them had someone to talk to but i didn't until I decided to join into their talk. It felt so weird. not the kind of friends i knew already.
I find myself a sucker. real big one. I just hate myself. I'm not pretty, not clever, suck at gaming and not even 'holy'!!! Juat what should I do? No one bothers or even understands me. mummy keep scolding me. daddy give attitude and isabel? haiz don't need to say already la.