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Wednesday, February 24, 2010

in school now and i don't wanna bgo home.. just hoping that i can stay back till 4 and watch the finalist.
bye

your words here.. =)

Just whats wrong with you?
i want to sleep also cannot...
do you know how tied and sad I am when you're here nagging?
i don't want to eat has no problem with you right?
is just wasting food okay?
you don't know what i've been through.
so stop your craps.
cause i won't listen.
its all my fault alright?
then you're happy this way
i hope.
you don't spare a thought for me.
what makes you think i would?
I love GOD
but i don't like his commandments.
ESPECIALLY this " CHILDREN OBEY YOUR PARENTS AND EVERYTHING WILL GO WELL WITH YOU."
TO ME IT DOESN'T
bye bye

your words here.. =)

i'm sad/happy/angry/fustrated with myself.

Do you ever wonder why you are sad? why aren't you like other people? so fun, friendly? why god made you this way?

i don't know whether is was really a good choice to go to opss. its not that i've regretted it but i'm just thinking.

_ _ _ and - - -( all the short forms) are pissing and hurting me so damn freaking a lot.

why do i have a big mouth?

why am i always overly anxious?

why do i get anxious easily?

why can't i be like tricia or rynell?

why must i be disliked by some peope?

why is my attitude like this?

why am i not doing devotion?

is this really god's plan to make me feel like this?

i really don't know...

today, i totally screwed up the whole 'kindness and english' concert. wtf.

i did not even sing my line at all like just forgot all the words and screwed it up.

the sad thing was that although many teachers said that actually our class was the best, we did not even win the top 3 places.

and mrs buthia was really very sad but she did not show it out. the amount of effort she put in was able to see how much she has done for us. the whole class. and we did not win anything.

Which teacher would spent about 2 hours on sunday just to practice with her students for this competion, come with her husband? she did. she stayed back with us almost every day. and what did we get? nothing. i feel so sorry towards her. like i really owe her and everyone else an apology.

i'm sick... having running nose and sore throat... many even having a fever.

I think i should stop being like this anymore. but i'm really very depress. and i souldn't say what happen in the toilet today but i just hope that God would help me have self-control and stop being so damn irritated with her.

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Monday, February 22, 2010

hi
in school now and its the only time that i can use computer.
lots of things happened during cny cause isabel had an accident and she had been going to mout alvernia for like 2 times a week?
anyway, i'm suppose to be fasting tv from 6 to 8 pm daily for 40 days
and i'm going to church to pray:) maybe asking her to go with me? but we in different cell and her tribe is different.
i finally realised that sometihing that is not meant to be yours will never be yours.
thats all you should know

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