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Monday, March 7, 2011

You wanna know how I'm feeling now ??
Worthless . Helpless . Nothing .
Choir . Yes . SYF is In less than a MONTH and here you are , slacking and not putting in your effort . Do you think we are ready for it ??! All you want is GOLD . But you aren't doing anything to let us get GOLD . You know how helpless I feel as a sec leader ? Know how it's like to get scolded by ms grace ? Pfft ! Please spare a thought for the rest of the people I'n choir . Please ! I beg you lah ! Just for one month . I hate it when we get scolded , ms grace in a bad mood , everyone not happy and we have a bad rehearsal . I know you don't like it too . So please , do your job . Choir is about TEAMWORK ! BEING UNITED ! RESPONSIBLE ! now we are nothing ! Nothing ! I feel like shit can . Ms grace is giving us one more chance to prove ourselves . We should really treasure this chance well . I believe I'n choir . I cried for choir . But I've decided to be strong for choir . Because I'm part of choir . And we are a team . Although the sec ones learnt the songs already very well , I believe that we seniors won't lack behind cause we have the FIGHTING SPIRIT ! And I know that god is with me through this journey to syf . It may not mean a great deal to you but it's something great to me . Cause I love choir <3 (:
Actually , getting messed up in life and getting so busy is good for me now . It gives me less time to think of you . Whenever I think of you , I smile . But sadly , it's not that kind of smile . It's the sad smile .
Youyouyou . What's happening to us again ? I wanted to talk to you but you ignored . I really don't know what to do . And here it goes again , you will start saying that I never spend enough time with the group , always going with them . What do you want me to do ? Know how sad u feel when you treat me like I'm invincible ? Know how I feel when you don't bother telling me anything that has happened to you ? Know that I'm actually very worried for you ? You are my dearest good friend and I want you to remember that . No matter what happens , please know that if you need help one day , I'll be there for you . Just font give up hope on our special friendship alright ?
And youyou and youyouyouyou , u wonder if you ever know that we have drifted so far that we don't hang out much anymore . And it starts to get awkward too . I hate it babes . I really miss the time where we hanged out together and went bugis , airport , studying and Starbucks together . How I would wait for you after school an go study together . How we would talk about anything under the sun . I miss you so much . But nothings gonna change the fact that you two have found much better friends than me .

But i thank god for UNCLE ALVINNY !! Hahaha ! Hes such a nice uncle (: he told me to ignore and ahead with me some things that really encouraged me a lot (: yay ! I'm one looking forward to serve with my new band . I don't know them but I think we will make it out just fine (:
God really told me many things during G12 though he didnt tell me whether the vision my mum and Melissa saw is his dream for me but it's okayy . I missed a lot of different sesions . Thts very sadvthats why my mum allowed me to but the dvd that cost $150 . Hahah . But luvkily , i didnt miss this one . Ps cesar 's daughter Sara , her message was really good . Like directly from god . I'm gonna live a broken life because it's that when you really encounter god . He's such an awesome god . He sent Jesus to die for my sin just because he loves me . He loves everyone . He's the perfect love , nothing on earth could ever be as lovely as him .
Hmm ... I guessed I've cooled down a lot already . PTL ! (:
Gonna study now (:

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