Oh fine . Great . Yeah . I'm super pissed now . damn you . just damn you . i know i'm not suppose to be jealous . but it's like i cant okay ??? if you ever know . how much i wanted to do that . how much i wanted to try . but it was all for shit alright ?! i'm not even bothered . why everything also her ? why cant you give others a chance ? it was suppose to be me . and much that i was afraid , i was happy . at least for once , you didnt give me a choice . i'm damn piss now . if i knew it i wont have let my hope rise ! i wished you didn't ask me or tell me anything . and i wished i hadn't read your email . i feel like crying can ? i know its damn stupid . but i seriously want it . :/ Went church today . then went semei for 18chefs and went to repair my hp which i waited for more than 1hour -.- brenda and si hui stayed with me for a while then they left . ps me lah . i miss school . A LOT . i miss my class ttm!! Do you realise how much i feel left out ? you're treating me like i dont even exist . hey , i have feelings too kay ? you're like always telling each other stuffs and tell me nth , what do you treat me as ? do you know how much i tried .i dont wanna quarrel with you anymore , cause i love you . i'm just telling you how i feel . you two tell each other everything . then how abt me ? ami just shit to you ? i tried to ignore that . in case you dodnt realised . how much i was trying to be like you two . but i guessed i failed uh ? i feel like a total loser ... in everything . today was a fucking bad day .