It's the love

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Hey, I'm sorry eh. I know it's mostly my fault not yours but cause I'm just tired and piss off ao I kinda vent my anger on you. So sorry kor. :X
sian. I'm really starting to hate my life much more than ever. I really really need god to help me. I know you think that I'm very paranoid. Yeah. You are right . I don't know why the hell I am so paranoid. Fear. Shit. Now even jq isn't really talking much to me. Does it mean to end our friendship?
Is it my fault?
Why isn't god here?
What is wrong?
That should be me...
I'm sorry for what i've done
the term is coming to an end
and now everything is gone
I need another open door
and I need your help
no one cares on what and how
I'm just someone invisible
I'm not even cared
everyday jut wearing a mask
it's not as if I'm so happy
I'm just a kid and life's a nightmare
what the fuck I wrong with my life
I hate it
all I want is to fit in and be your friends
I hate stucking up to people
and be who I am not.
This is not the life I want.
It's not your fault. Really.

To sing, to praise God, to laugh, to smile , to shout, to cry, to have friends .

Labels: Love care share

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Monday, August 16, 2010

Miracles do happen right?
Today was Shit until at night. The feeling of rejection is shit. Fuck. I should really stop using this word. It's getting a habit :X.
Oh yeah. Had a new kor. He's quite a geek. Hahaha. (Asshole) okays. I know i'm very bad. Hahaha.
Dont feel like posting abt wad happen today in school or tears will just roll down again.
For once. I'm happy. I thank god. Really. For making me believe that miracles do happen. Its like wow. I seriously hope that tomorrow will be a better day and God will show me what I can do with his name.
Byes-
You just treat me as junk.

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Sunday, August 15, 2010

"Teens of today have many things to think about, many things to worry about. Some people says teens are more stressed than adults. That might be true for most teens in the developed world of today. Teens have to balance their time and mind between their studies, friendships, families, relationships and many more. It is indeed a miracle how these teens manage all of these. Furthermore, Teenagers are at a stage of transition. The transition from childhood to adulthood. We already have to undergo so many stress physically and mentally without all the external factors. Things like studies are constantly the top priority to many teenagers. Teenagers has been trained by this Singapore culture to be perfectionist from young. We are constantly thinking about our studies. Could I get A. Could I get a good L1R5. All of these weighs constantly on the mind of teenagers. Much less things such as friendships where there could be quarrels and fights. Families is also a source of stress. Family problems, fighting in the family, parents having high expectations for results. Lastly, relationships and others less common problems not mentioned here. Teenagers of today are simply too stressed." from kor's blog. Yeah . I agree a lot. Sometimes, things just get so damn freaking wrong.
Just remembered what Daniel khong preached today . Don't look towards
the past. Look to the future.it's hard for us sometimes when we face troubles. We'll always think the negative side.
Actions speak louder than words. I actually also don't know what I'm typing. Just all the thought that I have been thinking.
School. It seriously sucks . Mum asks me why I sleep everyday after school. Wanna know the real reason? Cause sleeping is another way for me to forget all that has happened in school. I feel so damn inferior to my friends . I wish you were there to help Me and pick me up. Instead , when msg you, you don't even reply. Fuck. I wish all this won'thave happened. Smile, this is all what i tell myself. Jut act even if you're tired. Just try and live with it. I'm really tired of emoing and stuff. I wish god would help me. I need your help god.

Maybe it's not about forgetting the love, but about remembering the love.

Labels: Life

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