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Friday, March 19, 2010

Hello(: very tired now... Yesterday or was it today super early in the morning like from 12am to 6am for prayer and i feel so happy with the fact that I completed the 6hours of prayer!!!! Haha... I'm soo proud(: it was tough lah. Like from 4.30 am onwards cause it starts to get tired at that time. It's true. You'll get really tired... Anyway, made friends with some seniors? Not from my school one lah. But they are all older than me(; and, they're very nice(: haha. Just ended G12 conference using mum hp to go blogger while she drives. Tomorrow gonna have a long day again... Still have G12 and lots of hw not done. Went to school to help mrs bhutia today. Was kinda fun? But so sad. Didn't get to eat mac with her cause of choir. So... Yeah... That's all. I like this part of the chorus of this song: So give us clean hands and give us pure hearts... .......... Oh come let us be a generation that sings...

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Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Hello(: haha.. Today I feel better but I have not done my English hw yet and I need to pass up tmr!!! Die liao;( anyway, I realized that it's hard for me to make good friends especially in choir. Like most of the people I know is not sec1 and I dun really like the sec one's a lot beside of some other people lah.. I'm tired and I wAnt to sleep!!! Have a long day tomorrow:/. Bye;) love ya lots

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Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Haiz... You know, I shouldn't actually feel it that way. Why? Cause I know that they maybe will not and should not treat me that way. How should I put it??? Hmm... Lol. I am scared actually. Very. I found 2 very good friends in cell now after mixing with isabelle's group. Cause I realised that - and _ are both very nce. Even if Fiona comes back, I will not say no to be their friends. Cause I realised that they are wonderful. But now I'm scared cause I feel that another girl may just take over me. Then i'll be left lonely again. I had a hard time trying to be ther friends and now, when I feel that I am ready to be their friends, someone else just comes. Like it's putting me on a risk. Haiz... It's hard to express what I mean lah. Like I dun want that person to to take away my friends. Really. I love them lots. Anyway, today went I meet ps Kelly before going for choir. So sad. The vocalist are not moving with the whole team!!! So sad ... Then I can't see ---. Who cares anyway. Haha. Choir was tough. Kinda learnt or go through 4 songs. Tomorrow must learn 5 songs. Total by Friday 9 songs or else we cancel the concert. Wth lah. To people like $$$$$$$. Go for class gathering then dun come choir. How many people scacrificed so many things for choir and you cannot. Must go for that gathering. P5 somemore. Can't you spare a thought for all the other people in choir? They spent so muh effort and time in this. If you want to quit choir, then why not do it now? Like why waste your time lah. Why bother listening to your parents when you don't want?I know I'm not in the position to judge you but i just can't help it. My face is itching like shit and tomorrow I have Chinese tuition at

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Sunday, March 14, 2010

Hey, I'm back from encounter(: love God soo much now. Actually, it's much more. Cause i loved him but not this much last time.
Encounter was great. Had full anointing from God and I knew what God wanted me to be already.

I wanted to be a doctor but i think that God has other plans for me. To be a worship leader. Why? Cause I served in gkidz but for another reason, i'm so sure is because my mother had told me before 2years ago during G12conference, God showed her very clearly that i was singing on stage infront of A LOT. I mean A LOT. yeah. and isabel was playing the piano.

But today, during prayer i think, the leaders or guides had to pray for us using the olive oil, melissa told me that i will be a worship leader. she saw me worshiping God and leading worship infront of A LOT A LOT A LOT of people. and she said it was exciting. but to me, i'm scared also. i don't sing well in front of people. maybe being a levities will help me build my confidence?

it takes great courage to stand up on stage you knowww...

Anyway, today God told me that he loved me again. I don't know why but even in the transformers camp, God also told me the same thing. that he loves me.

Maybe its because i always feel that people don't love me.

i don't love myself,

people dislike me a lot.

thats why today i poured my heart out.

i was tired.

i wanted to have more.

more of God,

more of Jesus.

There were broken lines, cuts all in my heart.

no one except God knew. but i closed my heart at that time. i pushed God away. God does not force people. Its our choice.

ILY GOD

I LOVE ANNALISA AND LYDIA TOO(: