Saturday, April 28, 2012
Days past like idk how fast. It's really stressful. And I miss Fiona like mad . I wonder what happen . I'm in a lost road now . I'm aimless . I wanna finish the race but I just can't do it on my own . It feels like my world is falling down. I don't want isabel to leave . But I want also. You get the feeling? I'm in the mid of my exams. It feels shitty. I've never felt like this before . Now I dread going home. I don't want to ace people telling me what to do. Maybe I should really go Australia. But it's not an excuse . Everyday, I study for the sake of studying. Where has my motivation gone? It feels like empty days passed. Without me knowing. I am sick of this life . I'm never the bet. Even though i try. I try hard too alright? Just that whenever I try, nothing is right. It's just pure shittness. Study so hard for what? Are we going to bring it to heaven?
Actually all I want is to just soak in God's presence . And not care about the things of this world. Sounds like a plan?
I just feel wasted. Wasted