Sunday, March 14, 2010
Hey, I'm back from encounter(: love God soo much now. Actually, it's much more. Cause i loved him but not this much last time.
Encounter was great. Had full anointing from God and I knew what God wanted me to be already.
I wanted to be a doctor but i think that God has other plans for me. To be a worship leader. Why? Cause I served in gkidz but for another reason, i'm so sure is because my mother had told me before 2years ago during G12conference, God showed her very clearly that i was singing on stage infront of A LOT. I mean A LOT. yeah. and isabel was playing the piano.
But today, during prayer i think, the leaders or guides had to pray for us using the olive oil, melissa told me that i will be a worship leader. she saw me worshiping God and leading worship infront of A LOT A LOT A LOT of people. and she said it was exciting. but to me, i'm scared also. i don't sing well in front of people. maybe being a levities will help me build my confidence?
it takes great courage to stand up on stage you knowww...
Anyway, today God told me that he loved me again. I don't know why but even in the transformers camp, God also told me the same thing. that he loves me.
Maybe its because i always feel that people don't love me.
i don't love myself,
people dislike me a lot.
thats why today i poured my heart out.
i was tired.
i wanted to have more.
more of God,
more of Jesus.
There were broken lines, cuts all in my heart.
no one except God knew. but i closed my heart at that time. i pushed God away. God does not force people. Its our choice.
ILY GOD
I LOVE ANNALISA AND LYDIA TOO(:
OF COURSE MELISSA AND VANESSA (:
ALL GREAT PEOPLE.
and i got to know people like Clarice, Jaz and Cherly better too(:
love them lots(:
xoxo
annabel
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