Sunday, September 12, 2010
I super dont feel like going for cell anymore. You cant blame me right? To you, everythin's my fault. It's never yours. You dont have a dream. You dont dream for God. And even if you have, you dont share. You dont bother sharing with me. After all these years, you never change. You are still the same you. The same one. You know people can feel and they can sense that I dont like my cell? I'm trying hard to like it. Love you all. But it doesn't stop me from thinking or wishing why wasn't I in their group? Why did our friendship have to go until so strain. You all say you understand. But the fact is that you dont. I stayed because I knew I had a purpose in this group. I know that mel wants me to lead. But it's really very hard. I miss the times when fiona was here. When we went hyper together. I cant stand it when it's only me being hyper. Like no one is with me. It makes me feel stupid.
I love you, my dear sister.. Seriously.
I wish you would see this mel.